One more post for the day

Okay people. One more thing… or a couple more.

1. I am down 10 pounds. 🙂 That actually made me dance a jig 🙂

2. I am going to put my computer in the closet.

Why? Because I have a huge task of cleaning house, packing it and getting this family to move in a month. SO… since I spend an insane amount of time on Facebook and other things, I’m logging off by putting my computer for a while.

I have lost 10 pounds by being on my feet more and eating less… well… think of how much I can lose if I put the computer away for a long while 🙂


So… if you really want to reach me after tomorrow 4/2/13 you can text or call… or even email- I still have that on my phone.


Vent about “Holidays”

Has anyone else out there noticed that all holidays require some kind of special food or candy?

If you can name one holiday that isn’t associated with food, I’ll give you a prize. (I admit, I don’t necessarily call Valentines or St. Patty’s or Halloween a real holiday- but they still require candy or special food. As for those other “Hallmark holidays” I don’t even count them at all.)

Valentines- Chocolate, candy, and cake

St. Patty’s Day- Corn Beef, Cabbage, potatoes, carrots. – not alltogether bad, just food related. (Shamrock shakes) Green candy

Easter- Candy, eggs, big meal

Memorial Day- Cookout, big meal, desserts

4th of July- Cookout, big meal, desserts

Labor Day- Cookout, big meal, desserts

Halloween- Candy, candy, candy

Thanksgiving- HUGE meal, desserts out the ears.

Christmas- HUGE meal, desserts, candy

It’s as if we Americans need more excuses to eat huge meals and feel it’s ok. Or to buy outrageous amounts of candy numerous times a year and feel it’s ok to feed it to ourselves and our kids.

I’m not trying to sound all high and mighty, or even healthy. I love Christmas and Easter and Thanksgiving as much as the next person. But when my own kids can’t think of anything else but the candy and the treats and not about the truth of those days… it makes me sick and I want to throw it all away and never buy candy again.  I acknowledge that might be a little on the extreme… and only the surface issue.

Truth is, it’s hard to teach our kids the truth about holidays when they are bombarded with untruth every second of every season. To have it become their natural response to any given holiday.  It’s even harder to teach control and moderation when that is something I myself have yet to figure out.

Sometimes I wish I could reprogram my brain and in essence reprogram the world around us. To have Christmas and Easter be about Christ’s birth and Resurrection. And gatherings with friends and family not require food… or at least as much of it. And for moderation to be natural and easy. As for those “holidays” that exist for gluttony only? I would wish them away.

I know that these wishes will never happen. I know that truth comes from teaching, hearing and learning things of God’s Word. I know that moderation comes from self-control and self-control through Jesus.  And I know that I cannot control the world, or even my kids for that matter, but I can control what is brought into our home and how to present it. And this world will never change. We have to change our worldview.

But I can still wish 😉

Visit to Michigan

Over Spring break AJ, Cam and I went to Michigan to visit family and friends. I was excited to see everyone.

I had plans with so many people and knew it was going to be crazy, but at the same time very much needed. I needed to see my crew… ya know?

So Saturday afternoon we piled us and all our crud into the car and headed up north. We stopped off in Northern Indiana to visit long time family friends (30 years plus) – The Kortokrax’s for “Uncle Bill’s” 60th birthday party. I got to meet several of my “nieces and nephews” (the Bills boys were considered our brothers when we were kids) that I hadn’t met before and watched as Cam and AJ got tangled up in the crew’s shenanigans. Bon fire, games in the dark and lots of kids- reminded me of when we were all kids. It was a pile of fun and the kids had a blast.

Marissa and Mom were there too, so they got to witness one of the funniest events of the night… AJ is getting squished in a giant hug by one of the little girls there. I teased him and said “Aw look, AJ has a girlfriend!” he looks at me with complete exasperation on his face and replies “MOM! She can’t be my girlfriend, she’s my cousin!” Well… not quite, but I found it hilarious that he accepted that as fact without a moments hesitation.. at least when it was convenient.

Needless to say we didn’t get to Michigan until very late/ early morning of Sunday.

We had a scheduled lunch with Anders and his new forever mom and dad. And the kids were looking forward to it… so was I, but it’s still painful to see him and hug him and know that he’s not ours anymore. But the visit went well… and the kids had a nice rowdy visit. 🙂

After we got back to moms I FINALLY got to meet the cutest, most sweetest, big smoochy cheek nephew. That little boy is more precious than any photo could show.  And as AJ put it: “His smile is so beautiful, it just lights up his whole face!”

There was a lot of emotion that went along with me on this trip. Fear, anxiety and complete anticipation of loss. The father of lies had me convinced that the things of this last year were going to cost me my support crew of friends and family. I was totally ready to say good-bye to people. So even though I was very excited to see everyone, I still was worried that they wouldn’t want to be part of my life anymore.

So, as I got ready to go out for ladies night, those were the emotions going through my head and heart. I knew there were a pile of girls coming and that made me happy, but I just wondered what was going to happen. And how many of them were going to withdraw from my life.

How amazing it was for me to understand that these ladies not only came for the fun, but are there for me… like in the “no matter what” kinda way.  The father of lies, is just that… full of lies.  I came away from that night filled up. Full of hope, joy and smiles. And blessed.

Monday was time with dad… lots of time. And although I still think he’s given up on life, he at least had a real conversation with me. Which he hasn’t done in well over 3 years.

Tuesday was filled with one thing after the other.  But it started with an awesome hair appointment, some amazing coffee and friendship, and finished with more destruction of lies.

Needless to say, it was an amazing trip and one that brought me peace… and as we experienced Easter yesterday, that peace was expanded and emphasized in all of our hearts.